So, as most of you know, my life had had lots of ups and downs over the last year and a half. I've struggled with both relationships and addiction. But, the last four months have been better.... I've been in a new relationship with a man named Reyn. He may not be everything that other people want him to be, but he's everything to me. He's brought a lot of good back into my life. I had lost my kids, but I got them back. He helped me to get clean, and he's helped me stay that way. And, because of him, I have goals, again.
I just wanted to write tonight to give that little update and to talk about some of the things I'm currently struggling with... For starters, I'm having to learn to cope in this world without using the devil's drug, even though there are both triggers and temptations everywhere. It's not easy, but I know it's a road that will only lead me back to the same hell. Another thing I'm having to learn how to do is parent. Those of you who have kids already know how hard that can be. But, imagine trying to do it after being absent from their lives for almost two years. They have no guarantee I won't just up and leave again, so they think they shouldn't have to listen to me. We're all in therapy, though, so maybe it will help.
On top of those things, I'm still working on getting my Education degree and I'm looking for a job. Plus, we're trying to find a place to move to. Sometimes it's extremely overwhelming. It's when I feel like that, that I start having cravings and stuff. They tell me this is normal. But, for how long? It's been four months, already.... But, I'm doing the best I can to stay busy and find other ways to cope....
Well, it was short, but that's all for now. If anybody has any tips on how to make any of this stuff easier to deal with, or suggestions for healthy coping, please feel free to share in the comments section. Thanks. :)
I just wanted to write tonight to give that little update and to talk about some of the things I'm currently struggling with... For starters, I'm having to learn to cope in this world without using the devil's drug, even though there are both triggers and temptations everywhere. It's not easy, but I know it's a road that will only lead me back to the same hell. Another thing I'm having to learn how to do is parent. Those of you who have kids already know how hard that can be. But, imagine trying to do it after being absent from their lives for almost two years. They have no guarantee I won't just up and leave again, so they think they shouldn't have to listen to me. We're all in therapy, though, so maybe it will help.
On top of those things, I'm still working on getting my Education degree and I'm looking for a job. Plus, we're trying to find a place to move to. Sometimes it's extremely overwhelming. It's when I feel like that, that I start having cravings and stuff. They tell me this is normal. But, for how long? It's been four months, already.... But, I'm doing the best I can to stay busy and find other ways to cope....
Well, it was short, but that's all for now. If anybody has any tips on how to make any of this stuff easier to deal with, or suggestions for healthy coping, please feel free to share in the comments section. Thanks. :)
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